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[FhoNikZ]

hey....well, basically over a four week period, every time i smoked, i'd write just about anything that came across my mind. i was basically experimenting with verses that are just me talking that go into musical chorus type things, sooo, yeap, tell me what ya think!

Mind, Pt.1
verse:
>I dont know why i did this now, i just wanted to type something that seemed once cool inside of my head, but i forgot what it was...
>i love me some tool, i'm listening to tool, tool...is fucking sweet, i've listened to this cd 3 times already..........so yea, it rocks
>how the fuck does he come up with these god damn lyrics, they're uber mother fucking sweet, i'd fuck his children if i could
>i keep thinking someone is behind me, i'm all alone at the moment, waiting for andy, but i keep thinking someone opens the door
verse:
>GOD, fucking tool! ..damn it! i thought someone opened the door again, holy shit, i'm getting really fucking dizzy right about fucking now
>okay i'm back, i dunno what happened, i'm just really fucked up i suppose eh'? FUCKING DOOR! i wish andy would hurry the fuck up
>so if you cant tell, i'm actually trying to copy off tool's rosetta stoned with the fucked up way i'm writing this song, do you care? i dont
>damn it to the pits of bloody fucking hell... i forgot what i was talking about again, and i really really really really dont feel like reading right now
verse:
>i think i'll make this into techno song, it be fun. i want sweet techno music for fun fun times.... why am i turning into a fuzzy fucking bear?
>holy shit andy, get the fuck here so you can fucking read this shit! god damn it, dont make me write another song about your bitch ass car!
>its not THAT bad of a car, i just like to say shit like that because....well, i've been meaning to tell you this for a few months now.....you're stupid
>i just made myself laugh by reading my last scentenceFUCKYEA!!!!!!! fucking wings part one just kick into gear! i love this damn song! woot woot!
verse:
>yea, this will deffinetaly make a sweet techno song, then i'll beat the fuck out of that bitch door that i keep thinking is opening......... i have an idea
>fuck! i forgot! fuck! shit! piss! *****!! ANDEEE!! eawer! god! what the fuck am i doing? i forgot again! yea, eat your heart out tool, i'm outwriting you!
>you think keeping up with your rosetta stoned and reading the lyrics at the same time is really hard??..............................well.......... .......try this...
>I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD THAT DOOR IS GONNA GET IT! now i forgot how i was gonna end this, i need to make it funny..............EXTREME!!!
Mind, Pt.2
verse:
>So, theres a t.v. on, its on, but not being watched..
>Jobo brought some movies out with him..
>Now he and Andy lie asleep, its approximately 6:18 a.m.
>So I'm watching them....the movies...
verse:
>I hate my fucking door, but I'm glad..
>..at the moment, its closed
>So I guess theres nowhere to sleep...
>I'm staying up, Andy will be awake soon..
verse:
>Kinser...mutha-fuckin' Kinsah!......awake..
>...damn, my telekinisis isn't working
>i'll have to fix that...wonder how much it costs?
>....i'll just google it
verse:
>So its been a whole day since I've wrote on this
>Andy is back after work
>I'm bored....
>I'll write a story..
verse:
>So once there was this black guy...
>He was listening to Tool one bright, sunny day..
>He was walking down the sidewalk when it happened
>...the day it all faded to black
verse:
>He awoke later in his own bed..
>Soaked in sweat, he caught enough breath to spit out the words
>..."It must have been a dream"..
verse:
>Deep in the back of his mind, he felt he needed to do something....
>He went about his day....normally..
>The usual...smoked a bowl, went to work, took a shit, showered, then hit the bar..
>..He drinks untill 2 a.m., then leaves the bar...
verse:
>He realizes he can't drive, HA!
>Hell NO! He was WAY too fucked up!
>The man reaches into his car to pull out his walkman..
>He starts walking in the direction of his house..
verse:
>He was alone, he thought he heard other footsteps
>...He walked faster..
>He was grabbed from behind...
>The last thing he saw, was a knife...the day it all faded to black..
verse:
>So there ya go, how was the story?
>You may think i'm insane..
>But I'm not..
>You are...
verse:
>Why?
>Because we all see things differently
>...I just see things in a weird type of way
>I see you as insane.....
verse:
>So if you've ever wondered..
>Exactly..WHAT kind of hit goes on in the depths on my mind..
>If you THINK you have me figured out...
>...Then you haven't even SEEN the half of it...
Mind, Pt.3
verse:
>Ya miss me?
>I'm back!
>Yet again, I'm...just...gone...I'm going to explain..
>So this is gonna be part three..
verse:
>I really should make this sweet...
>Here I go, I'm gonna try...
>To tell you..
>What is really all that is in my mind...
verse:
>I'm sitting in a room of five...just observing..I feel like I'm learning...
>Kind of like...
>Discovery Channel...
>...But in real life
verse:
>It only seems as if a few seconds have passed..
>But what you don't know...is that almost fourteen hours have passed...
>Isn't it weird how time works like that?
>In only a matter of a few seconds, you can see what took as long as years to unfold...
verse:
>There is just no way you can comprehend...
>...How much has REALLY happened
>...How much someone had to go through...
>...How much pain may have been endoured..
verse:
>I guess trying to understand things like this...
>Just leaves questions that can't be answered
>Thats the only reason...that...
>...I'm aeithiest
chorus:
>My mind is only one, alone, alone
>I'm a crazy mutha fucka to get to know..
>You'll never predict me, I'm too damn random..
>Fuck you assholes, this is the portal into my mind...
verse:
>Back at Mat's again...
>Chillin'...Mat and Andy are upstairs..
>When I'm alone....I think....
>...I think I think too much....
verse:
>Off to class now...
>...Be back in fourty...
>...Back again, was actually longer...
>...Tool was involved...
verse:
>Fooseball was taking time as well...
>I am champion..
>Its almost too intense....
>Let me tell you why...
chorus:
>My mind is only one, alone, alone
>I'm a crazy mutha fucka to get to know..
>You'll never predict me, I'm too damn random..
>Fuck you assholes, this is the portal into my mind...
verse:
>We start out just fine..but then..
>He scores.....
>And he keeps doing so...
>I give it every bit I've got
verse:
>Everything in the world depends on every point I make..
>My heart starts racing...
>I go into an adrenaline type trance...
>The whole time, my heart beating out of my chest...
verse:
>SHIIIIT! FUCKK! NOOOOOO!
>...Fuck you Mat, you're gonna give me a heart attack
>Your screaming makes me giggle...
>...But damn does it hurt
musical verse x4:
>Step into my mind
>As if you care
>As if you care
>Empty vastness inside of nowhere
>Empty vastness inside of nowhere...
>Empty vastness inside of nowhere...
>Empty vastness inside of nowhere...
>Empty vastness inside of nowhere...
verse:
>I'm going crazy...everything seems so....
>...Serious
>I get angry when people are serious..
>.....Chill the fuck out people
verse:
>As I've told you before, I hate my fucking door...
>It HAS to be closed...
>I feel unsafe if I can see into the hall...
>I feel like...something is watching me...with a stare of deep hatred and sorrow...
verse:
>This presence...scares the SHIT out of me
>I feel if I don't look, I may not have a chance to live...so I panik....
>I try not to do it..
>But my body stops moving..
>...My heart races..
>Its too loud to hear if something is there...
>In one last effort, I force my frozen body into a demention of anxiety, terror, and torture, that you can NEVER comprehend...
>Just to twist my head and look..
>...........Nothing was there.....
musical chorus:
>My hearts beating faster
>Such a fake disaster
>So much to get through this
>I hope that I'm not missed
musical verse:
>Forget..
>That I..
>Once alive..
>Tried not..
>To dispise..
>Fuck those people
>..Having lives
>Apparation...
>Miss my eyes..
>I am nothing..
>Paralyzed..
>Wish I'd done more...
>With my life
verse:
>Like when I was a child....
>I could have helped more, to help so much...
>I used to watch in terror....
>I couldn't help...I was too scared...
verse:
>The beatings from him just seemed to be to much...
>I couldn't handle seeing the pain...
>I ran into my room...
>.....I'm sorry mom.......
musical verse:
>Hard to put up with
>Those crazy antics
>No
>Mother please make it through this
>I'll get us out here...
>Someway or somewhere..
>What he put you through..
>Sent me places I never knew...
musical verse:
>Now I'm nothing
>...Eyeless mind
>Couldn't help her
>...Terrified
>Seeking vengance
>...Crusify
>Filled with envy
>...Taking lives
>Paranoia
>Caused this void
>Fuckin' Zombie...
>Not my choice
>All alone now...
>By myself
>Neostalgia...
>Doesn't help...
verse:
>Too crazy for ya?
>Do you understand me now?
>Do you see everything as I see it?
>I doubt it...

>Good luck trying though...
>To be me...to think like me...
>You have to go through what I've been through....
>.......I don't think you can handle that...
verse:
>But isn't it weird how different another persons percept on reality...
>Can seem SO wrong at first...
>...But seem so RIGHT later?
>Thats because it IS right....I'M right...
verse:
>Ya know whats weird......
>Is that I've talked about A LOT of shit....
>In this last piece...
>And its all because of that fucking door...
outro:
>Gonna blow your fuckin' mind x5
>Through intelligent design
>Gonna blow your fuckin' mind x8
>How can you define?
>Gonna blow your fuckin' mind x8
>You're running out of time
>Gonna blow your fuckin' mind x12