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He's cold, lonely, cries and dies inside at night. With his eyes closed, he sees a scene, unserene with screams and gleams of visions unclean. His love, his life, this pain, this knife, all relates in his mind as he lies in bed at night. Suicide was spoken and awoken, for now it resides as thoughts inside. His brain sustains this pain with help that dwells inside a plant, a seed, a chemical compound called THC, withdrawing his contemplation to commit. Yet at times he submits and rips and tears through his hair, as a tattered mark or scar appears on his body somewhere, some that'll stay for years. And he looks at them knowing that the past is real, with every reminisced thought he feels. And to deal with a pain so unfulfilled, it drills and drills and never stops, it just seems so surreal. Then when he wonders, what if he builds immunity to the THC slash WEED. Will his quiet yearning thoughts succeed? Please God, if this were to be, death upon thee, let it be quick for he grows tired and the pain grows thick. But if this wasn't meant, then why must these thoughts of pain be beckoning? He's wrecking his life questioning why? Why'd she have to leave his side? Why must there be another guy? Why must that affair have commenced where she cheated on me? These questions amongst the thousands more, being repeated constantly, can drive a man to his life's defeat. And I speak, risking appearing weak, allowing a girl who I still love, who left, still affect me.
Read aloud.
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