Is weed just not for me?

This is the first post/thread I have ever made on a forum so please excuse me if this is in the wrong place etc.

My question is: Is weed just not for me?

I have smoked on 2 separate occasions. The first time was really messed up and the second time was not quite as traumatic. When intoxicated with any mind altering substance I always seem to experience the same disturbing feeling 5-10 minutes after the initial substance use. This feeling from what I can gather seems to be an intense sense of derealization/depersonalization. I could go on for days explaining the intense and highly unsettling feelings but I will try to sum it up quickly. Basically my perception of reality and everything and anything at some random point becomes instantly and completely distorted and changed. I think about how I got to where I am at that moment, and I think about reality and how odd it is that anything exists. That I exist. " Sufferers feel they have changed, and the world has become less real, vague, dreamlike, or lacking in significance." I feel detached from myself and reality. To sum it up it's really fucked up. I can bring this feeling upon myself if I try really hard, but I, for obvious reasons avoid such thoughts. This feeling only lasts 5 seconds or so, but sends me into a mental breakdown for a little while. The first time it lasted 2 hours until I was mostly back to normal minus the pleasant high. The second time I suppressed the feelings and it only lasted 10 minutes. I have these instinctive responses to immediately vacate where ever I may be at the time. I'm really trapped in my own cloud of thoughts and my friends easily notice my strange behavior. I want to leave and go occupy myself with any possible distraction to get my mind back to a normal state. I'd call it almost a mental panic attack. I had enough composure to express my inner feelings of distress to my friends the first time, and the second I held my self together and avoided causing alarm. I simply went, "oh shit - I'm really high".

I wouldn't even consider smoking again but the following 4 hours were amazing the second time. Everything was 1 million times more hilarious. I was feeling an immense feeling of euphoria and I was feeling totally contempt about 30 minutes after my experience of derealization/depersonalization. I was on the ball, feeling great, and I slept like a rock. I had a great time. If it weren't for this initial reaction I would be in love with weed.

I will be smoking some time soon. Should I just rough the first 5-10 minutes or should I just stay off the herb? Has anyone else here experienced anything remotely similar? Please, any feed back.


Me: I'm 5 months away from being able to drive in a car with a parent/guardian in the passenger seat; just to give off an impression of my age. I have experienced 2 panic attacks in my life (physical, both near/full fainting, unrelated). I experienced the same feeling my first and only time drunk. This was also my first time experiencing derealization/depersonalization and it sent me into a 1 week mental break down and it took me 1 month total to come back to my self. (High 80%s in high school, would be better if it weren't for my selective effort). I would love to be able to just smoke some weed/drink and just relax D:

Thanks for reading.

Edits:
I feel absolutely no pressure to smoke. I'm not the kind of person to be influenced in such a way. I'm just asking for opinions/advice/similar experiences because It's sort of an inner conflict. I do greatly enjoy using marijuana; I just REALLY hate it for the first 15 minutes.

These feelings have come and gone. It's been weeks since my second time smoking, and I suppressed the feeling within 10 minutes. It's just a highly disturbing state of mind, and unfortunately, I can sometimes bring it onto myself if I put enough effort in. It seems as though weed just promotes 'out of the box' thinking for me; something I do not enjoy. I like clear minded normal consciousness(why I don't drink), but I also greatly enjoy the euphoria as well as all the other positive effects of weed.

I have genuine respect for anyone thinking "that's kinda young...". I did a lot of extensive research into marijuana use before even considering it. I'm a farily responsible and mature person for my age(imo haha). Unfortunately, one can't really predict how they will react their first time.

Edited by TheQwert, 14 June 2011 - 10:57 PM.

My first time I smoked I had a few of those feelings... but the cure for those terrible feelings is this: just chill and remember you're high and it won't last forever

Also tolerance will help, I didn't get those feelings after the first 5 times I smoked.

just chill out you probably cant right now but it'll pass sooner or later
and that after effect is more why I smoke than actually smoking.
Love it weeds afterglow

Nearly everyone that smokes has had a bad experience at least once. Considering that you probably have 0 tolerance, try not smoking as much next time. Maybe take a couple hits and chill until you want to get a bit higher, then take a few more.

If you get too high, try playing video games or do something that requires consistent attention.

I've already posted this once, but, here's an overview: Weed is NOT for everyone. Everyone has their own preference, and some people just do not like weed. I smoke because I enjoy it. You shouldnt smoke if you dont enjoy it and you definitely should not feel pressured to smoke.

It sounds like you and I are very similar I have gotten past those exact experiences I.E. First time smoking about 15 min in I just felt very... Strange... An almost unexplainable sensation in my mind where I would realize oh my fucking god I am BLAZED and after that nothing seems the same I think of it as getting in touch with my primal instincts oh and btw were probably close age wise anyway I have learned to expect these feelings and place them as normal in my mind and now when I smoke I don't even notice it I just smile now And am like " dude I'm so baked"

Do what make's yea feel good if pot doesn't then don't smoke it.

What he said noone can make that choice but you. And btw after my first experience I vowed to never smoke again and now I willingly smoke almost everyday.

just chill out you probably cant right now but it'll pass sooner or later
and that after effect is more why I smoke than actually smoking.
Love it weeds afterglow

These feelings have come and gone. It's been weeks since my second time smoking, and I suppressed the feeling within 10 minutes. It's just a highly disturbing state of mind, and unfortunately, I can bring it onto myself at any given time if I put enough effort in. It seems as though weed just promotes 'out of the box' thinking for me; something I do not enjoy. I like clear minded normal consciousness(why I don't drink), but I also greatly enjoy the euphoria as well as all the other positive effects of weed.

I've already posted this once, but, here's an overview: Weed is NOT for everyone. Everyone has their own preference, and some people just do not like weed. I smoke because I enjoy it. You shouldnt smoke if you dont enjoy it and you definitely should not feel pressured to smoke.

I feel absolutely no pressure to smoke. I'm not the kind of person to be influenced in such a way. I'm just asking for opinions/advice/similar experiences because It's sort of an inner conflict. I do greatly enjoy using marijuana; I just REALLY hate it for the first 15 minutes.

i have same shit but it only happens with some strains and with others ill be fine but u should try not to smoke alot at a time and keep ur mind off all the bull that pops in ur head to freak u out after the first initial time when it took like a month or two for me to feel normal again whenever it;d happen again it'd go away after couple days to week and even then it wasnt as bad so just relax and take it easy

Marijuana can bring upon dormant psychological disorders or amplify current ones. Do you know if you are smoking indica or sativa type cannabis? I would try and make sure its an indica type but if you still have the same feelings I think your decision to quit is very mature and reasonable.

i have same shit but it only happens with some strains and with others ill be fine but u should try not to smoke alot at a time and keep ur mind off all the bull that pops in ur head to freak u out after the first initial time when it took like a month or two for me to feel normal again whenever it;d happen again it'd go away after couple days to week and even then it wasnt as bad so just relax and take it easy

The strange thing is the second time (the time I enjoyed myself for the most part), I had maybe 7 decent hits from 2 joints. The first time I had 2 decent hits and 1 crappy hit from 1 joint. I was 10X more fucked up the first time! The weed was fine btw, my friends were all reacting positively.

First time I smoked I was freaking and thought I would get caught and shit

This happened to me the first couple times when I started smoking. Let me try to explain what I was feeling, see if it's similar to your experience.

When I first started smoking, I would constantly feel like I was in dream, then after I said something or did something, I would feel like I just woke up from that dream, like the previous couple of minutes before that didn't actually happen. I call it "moments of clarity", when you just wake up and go "woah dude, what the fuck" haha. I also felt detached like you did- and the remedy for that feeling, in my case anyway, was to keep smoking (not in the same sitting, but over time). Once my tollerance built up a bit, the feelings went away, that or I learned to deal with them so I didn't even notice them happening.

Like some of the above posts stated, try not smoking as much if you are really apprehensive about getting the feeling again. Also, just try not to think about it, and I know it's VERY hard to ignore the feeling, but if you get it, just pass it off like it's nothing, and continue having a good time. Eat some food, listen to some music... just chill out.

Happy toking!

PS- I'm going to have to be the bad guy here and bring it up, but 15 is a little young to start smoking in my opinion. But, do what you want, just know the health risks and other risks involved before you really start getting into it. Or, you don't have to. I've been smoking for over a year now and I'm still casual as hell about it, maybe once a week, twice max.

Edited by woahh, 11 June 2011 - 03:52 AM.

Well every strain gives you a different feeling all depends on which weed you smoke some weed gives me this weird lazy fucked up feeling.... and this other strain gives me a reallly really pleasant feeling.. also i noticed when i tried a new strain i didn't like it but after my 8th bowl i got used to it and started feeling good vibes. but the weed i like to smoke gives me an insane relaxing head buzz.... all my limbs feel roboty.... whole body feels like solid concrete (literlly).... insane munchies.... red as fuck eyes.... and when you wake up in the morning you feel so fukin refreshed and i get another feeling where i go "awhh fuck life feels good" just grow your own

When I was a kid I would play around with Lucy a lot. When my friends and I were planning an evening of Psychedlic fun I would get them to write on their hand I AM ON ACID (I got tired of being the babysitter and killing my buzz). Whenever someone started to trip the wrong way we would tell the person to look at their hand it usually settled them down.
Came in damn handy() many times.

I've already posted this once, but, here's an overview: Weed is NOT for everyone. Everyone has their own preference, and some people just do not like weed. I smoke because I enjoy it. You shouldnt smoke if you dont enjoy it and you definitely should not feel pressured to smoke.

i believe weed is for everyone theres so many diferent strains of cannabis not everyone will like what you or me like. just like theres different kinds of ice cream not everyone likes chocolate. i bet hundreads of people have tried pot and been given shit pot for their first time so they didn't like it and never tried it again. where if they where given good pot they might of liked it and tried it again if you ever give pot to someone and its their first time GIVE THEM GOOD WEED

I don't understand why people make such a big deal about weed being there "thing" or not. It's your god damn life do whatever you want. We arn't going to tell you whether the next time will be better because we don't know that for sure. I realize I'm being an ass but think of it as "IF I didn't know what GC was what would I do?".

When I was a kid I would play around with Lucy a lot. When my friends and I were planning an evening of Psychedlic fun I would get them to write on their hand I AM ON ACID (I got tired of being the babysitter and killing my buzz). Whenever someone started to trip the wrong way we would tell the person to look at their hand it usually settled them down.
Came in damn handy() many times.

like somebody would be able to read something written on their hand when their trippin on acid. Call bullshit on that but i guess it'd be a good tip if we're talking about weed although that shit would prob get you caught afterwards