[overgrowray]

errr yesterday i didn't go to school and my gf had her friend call me at lunch because she was scarred i wasn't there, and her friend said that she was crying all morning because she thought i was going to leave her. then today she staid really close to me and had her arms around me every chance she got. She keeps telling me shes sorry, but i duno exactly why. all she said was shes sorry for talking about fuck'n with other girls and everything, because her and her friends joke around about fucking with ecother all the time. i duno whats going on. I don't see it lasting. She cheated on me once before that i know of and i let that pass because she was all fucked up at the time, but i really think she cheated more than once. Someone that cheats once and cheat a thousand times. I'm a bitch for not leaving her then, but that was 3 months ago i can't dump her now because of it... well i can... i duno what to do, i would of left her but i'm in love with her, i never thought about another person the way i think about her. I never been truely in love before, i've thought i was in love but it wasn't like this at all. I duno.... errr. thanks for letting me vent about shit.