[smokerings]

Originally Posted by heya.biffo

t seems that the more i think about it, the less plausible the idea of a god or higher power becomes, but with that comes the thought of "does it really fucking matter?" if the universe was created in a big bang, or if we're some kind of canvas for some intangible artist in the sky. does that even affect who i am now, and how i should/do live my life?

would i be better off, doing good deeds and being who i'm not just to make sure that an eternity im unsure of turns out ok? it seems more people now aren't good for the sake of being good people, they're "good people" because they're scared of hell.

should what my parents believe determine where i spend my eternity? do i even believe that there's anything after this life? i think the main problem today is too many people jump into religion too quickly. you don't jump into a relationship quickly. why should jumping into a relationship with the potential creator of everything be any different?

the only thought i had today at church, as they said the same tired old messages of "god" and his "goodness" was a little saying from the brainscratch episode of cowboy bebop, and the more i thought about it, it started to become a lot more plausible then "we are created for the sole purpose of worshipping and pouring our entire being into a god that we're not even sure exists." it went something like.

"god didn't create humans, humans created god"

nothing created anything but everything exists. please do NOT waste your time trying to figure it out. you will not succeed.