[Natural Mystic]

Originally Posted by Budo

That's a problem I worry about facing very much. Currently I'm pretty much in chill mode, I live with my parents while I finish up my schooling, and life is very solitary, I pretty much have one good friend (which I an greatful for) and thats it, that's all I have. I've been spending this non-social time getting to really know myself, in preparing to know what I want and who I want to be. All I can say to that is you really need to spend time thinking about things. When I got the green, I wake and bake every morning and for an hour to and hour-and-a-half I just think in my bed, think about everything and anything that relates to myself. My self journey has lasted since the beginning of the year, and I'm still not sure. I plan to road trip much of the U.S. soon to hopefully broaden and change my perspective, but the correct and fullfilled road for oneself to take is deffinatley a hard road to find. I just want to say that while I'm not suffering from the same problem as you, I am deffinatley striving to find what it is I need to do before I have to chose a life, and I understand how diffucult and frustrating in must be to have such thoughts in your mind. Perhaps I'm just rambling, I don't have any mary-ju-wanna and I'm drunk as a fuck, but I think you should spend some of your high time sitting back and thinking in a high-n-happy mode by yourself just thinking of what you really what, and what you can do to work towards it. I want to say that this is a great thread, and I hope you feel better about the life your living, there's nothing worse than regretting the current state of life you live.

Edit: Wow, that was longer and more profound than I thought hahahaha.

whoa.. i can't almost related to exactly what your saying. This past year for me has been nuts, definatly a life changing experience. I think the main goal is to have a purpose for yourself, and that purpose is for you to be happy, in the end doesn't everyone want to be happy? I don't think you need to go through life worrying about what you did that will make people remember you, because their opinions don't really matter in the end. So why not live a great life, and just be happy with who are you, be happy that your living and be happy with everything that life throws your way. Hehe, its way easier to say it than actually doing it :P