[HypnoToad]

To be honest I think about suicide all the time...too much in fact.Ive struggled with very deep depression for 10 years which is really sad considering I'm only 20.Ive lived a very hard life and Ive lived in even harder places...I've gone through more hardship and pain in the first 10 years of my life than most people experience in an entire lifetime ...but I always pick up the pieces and move on because thats all you can do.There's way too much to experience and do in life to waste it.Especially if all we get is one shot at life.

Sometimes it gets so bad I can hardly move.No energy,No will to live...No will to even stand up...Life can be a tiresome struggle at times that accomplishes nothing and goes nowhere.But thats when you know it's time to change those circumstances that are getting you down.We all have the power to live any way we want , to accomplish anything we want.

And what makes the depression the worst is the simple fact that alot of people dont truly care about anything but themselves.But there are also alot of people who truly care.

My fiancee really helps me through the hard times and I've known her since she was born.We grew up together.But at the same time I really help her through her hard times because she is depressed often enough too.

One must take a hard look at their life and find the positive things in their life and focus on them whether its goals,friends.family or etc...

But at the same time you must see the negative things that need to be changed and at least try to change them.

All in all suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and rather than taking a drastic measure like suicide is never warranted there is always an easier and better answer even if you cant see it.One day when the clouds of doom and despair lift you will be glad that you chose to tough out the hard times and had alot of wonderful experiences and will continue to experience many great things for years to come.