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Originally Posted by dcuthell  fast eddie you inspire me. i'm on day two of absolute sobriety (no cigarettes, no booze, no ganj, no amphetamines, no blow, no mdma, no hallucinogens, no hookers [always the hardest to give up]), and i am overwhelmed with how wonderfully aware i am of everything around me. This is not a good thing. My blissful "fuck it" attitude has quickly turned to a "go fuck yourself" attitude. i yell at people who annoy me instead of ignoring them. i pace around the apartment, desperate for a cigarette or a sip of J&B. I bagged up the last two ounces of the M39, and as i broke up a nice 5g nug, i looked at my trembling fingers, sticky from the nugget and damp from my tears. last night it took me an hour to fall asleep, and i must have woken up five times shaking and sweating. I can't remember the last time I took one full sober day, and I am certain that the last two full sober days occured in august 2007.
Brave sir, I need your words of encouragement during these dark, dark times. |
Just remember your goal, it gets better everyday. As time goes on really does get easier but I have found that keeping track of my progression helps a lot. Things like that dont seem to help but when you look down at your record and it gets better you will feel better, it will help you to inspire yourself. By day 3 sleep got a little easier if that helps. Take care and try to stay busy, idle time is your enemy.