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PJV575 · #**222** (**permalink**) 05-23-2008, 05:11 AM

I don't know what to do anymore.

I try to be social, I really do, but it isn't working very well. I don't know.

I guess I came to this thread to vent. I'm thinking about death (not suicide) right now and it just makes me feel lonely as fuck. I've never had many people who I know in real life to talk to ever since I changed schools. And now that I'm out of school completely I have NO ONE to talk to. Now I have resorted to using online forums to talk to people and it just makes me feel shittier knowing that.

I dunno, I'm just depressed as fuck and my meds aren't helping me. I'm at the point where the only thing that helps is MJ, and I'm broke and have no connects anyways.

Fuck.

EDIT: Thought I would add in that I have severe depression with psychotic features. I attempted suicide (well, attempted to attempt, I had a loaded pistol) on December 30th and posted a "suicide note" on this forum, so I feel like I can talk about it here.

#222 (permalink) 05-23-2008, 05:11 AM
PJV575 Acta Non Verba Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Western MA Posts: 585	I don't know what to do anymore. I try to be social, I really do, but it isn't working very well. I don't know. I guess I came to this thread to vent. I'm thinking about death (not suicide) right now and it just makes me feel lonely as fuck. I've never had many people who I know in real life to talk to ever since I changed schools. And now that I'm out of school completely I have NO ONE to talk to. Now I have resorted to using online forums to talk to people and it just makes me feel shittier knowing that. I dunno, I'm just depressed as fuck and my meds aren't helping me. I'm at the point where the only thing that helps is MJ, and I'm broke and have no connects anyways. Fuck. EDIT: Thought I would add in that I have severe depression with psychotic features. I attempted suicide (well, attempted to attempt, I had a loaded pistol) on December 30th and posted a "suicide note" on this forum, so I feel like I can talk about it here. __________________ Last edited by PJV575; 05-23-2008 at 05:15 AM.