[waterhurley]

Originally Posted by SuicidalSpaz

No dude, You need to man up. Realize that you're developing a habit, and it's one you need to end. Trying to justify it with " it's my birthday" is an excuse. Understand you just went through $100 of yak YOURSELF in a night.

That's the start of a problem, whether you want to believe it or not. Most people 20 or 21 aren't doing a 100 bucks of coke a night man. I was for awhile and that was just the start. I would suggest that after your birthday, you stay clear of the stuff for a couple months. " but i dont crave it and i feel i have control over it" Is that a serious statement? Denial man, this shit is text book addiction.

You're going to kill an 8ball for your birthday with MAYBE one other person? Now you're not even doing the drug socially, you're doing it alone. That's another step to addiction. After your birthday, stay clear of it for awhile. You don't crave it? You just did 2 grams to yourself, and plan on picking up another 8ball. That's nearly 6 grams in the same week man...

Take a look in the mirror and overcome this shit before it overwhelmes you. That's coming from an Ex-Coke addict. Shit took me several years to get fully off it, and I've only been clean a week. That " Oh, it'll never happen to me" mentality is bullshit, cause that's exactly how I thought. Then I woke up and looked in the mirror one morning... The reflection will never be the same.

yep your 100% right. fri night/sat morn it took me to get the best high and expierence the worst crash of my life to realize its leading me no where but down. im done for now. if i ever do it again its at partys if offered, but even then it will be a while.