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Originally Posted by waterhurley
well last night i killed $100 of yak tonight im hopefully grabbin an 8-ball. its my bday so i like to have fun but im just trying to not let this be a habbit.
i cant bealieve i killed $100 of yay. i think they were 1 gram bags for 50 a piece and i got 2. i cant sleep obviously sinve ime so wired. kinda wait for the crash so i can smoke and pass out . that or ill pop a klonopin (was takin them earlier) i get a script of those about once a month and there gone in 3 days.
seems to me like im binging on my non-weed drugs? and i mean as long asa i stay in control doesy anyone else see anything worng wit it?
its not like i crave coke or pills, but when they are around i do gaba em. i dunno i grew up with straight edge friends whod kill me if they found out i pop pills or do some yak.
i guess im just starting to question if i have a probelm, or im just having fun like most people at age 20-21.
i mean i really like coke but i know ill get hooked if im not careful. however im grabbin an 8 ball tmrw for my bday. i know it will be gone fri night between me and MAYBE 1 oter person but i doubt it. but i dont crave it and i feel i ahve contorl over it.
i just killed like almost 2 grams and im watching the sun rise. i love it but at the ssame time i question it all
what GC/s opinion?
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No dude, You need to man up. Realize that you're developing a habit, and it's one you need to end. Trying to justify it with " it's my birthday" is an excuse. Understand you just went through $100 of yak YOURSELF in a night.
That's the start of a problem, whether you want to believe it or not. Most people 20 or 21 aren't doing a 100 bucks of coke a night man. I was for awhile and that was just the start. I would suggest that after your birthday, you stay clear of the stuff for a couple months. " but i dont crave it and i feel i have control over it" Is that a serious statement? Denial man, this shit is text book addiction.
You're going to kill an 8ball for your birthday with MAYBE one other person? Now you're not even doing the drug socially, you're doing it alone. That's another step to addiction. After your birthday, stay clear of it for awhile. You don't crave it? You just did 2 grams to yourself, and plan on picking up another 8ball. That's nearly 6 grams in the same week man...
Take a look in the mirror and overcome this shit before it overwhelmes you. That's coming from an Ex-Coke addict. Shit took me several years to get fully off it, and I've only been clean a week. That " Oh, it'll never happen to me" mentality is bullshit, cause that's exactly how I thought. Then I woke up and looked in the mirror one morning... The reflection will never be the same.