[Drunkship]

Two days ago I took 2mg of K-Pins and blazed some bowls. It felt pretty good, but I wish I had had more to take.

Anyways, the next day (yesterday) I felt very relaxed. Normally I feel very anxious and over analyze everything and freak out, but it was quite the opposite! And today I feel very panicy again.

Right now I have butterflies in my stomach again. I still haven't heard back from the school I'm trying to transfer to yet. And I can't pick classes at my school in case because I missed the date and even the date for housing. I'm freaking out. I know I'm not going here next year but if I don't get into the other school it's ruin all my plans for next year. I'll have to go to a community college for a year and maybe even the second semester if I miss the deadline on those, then I'll be half a year behind everyone! I'm freaking out!

BAH! But I got two job offers from CareerBuilders in the mail for summer work. $10.50 at one and $9.50 at the other. I have to save up for an apartment in the town of my school with my friend so I need to work 40+ hours a week this summer.

Oh yeah did I meanttion I'm quitting weed on Sunday? Sunday will be my last day blazing for at least 30 days. I need to be able to pass the drug tests for the jobs, and I need to save up money right now for a car ASAP, and I feel I need a tolerance break. We'll see how it goes.

Anyways, I actually think I could maybe use this medication because of how I felt that day and the next day. Or maybe it was a placebo? I dunno. Whatever, my family can't afford that right now anyways, never mind the psychologist and therapist I'd have to see.