well, i found some "purple sticky 40x salvia extract" in my room not too long ago (shit my brother left behind when he moved out) so i decided to try some of it on 4/20 with a couple of friends..
and it was fucking intense. and weird. i had no control over what i was doing and i completely forgot that i had just toked a bowl of some salvia.. it was like i was in this puzzle and i NEEDED to do something in order to get my life back in order. i looked over at my friend (who wasnt tripping) and all i could see was his face. no body or nothing, just a floating face. not even a head.
i continued to feel that i needed to do something. i kept thinking back in my head "this is how its gunna be for the rest of my life.. im never gunna figure this fuckin thing out". my friends told me that i kept beginning to say something, but then id stop. i had headphones on at the time of taking the hit (i was listening to "monkey man" by the rolling stones
) and i lept off the ground with the headphones still on my head and ripped em outta the stereo. my friends bed was in the room and i lept on there and tried to calm down and get shit back together. then i felt the need to take off my shirt (there was a WEIRD tingly sensation vibrating through out my body) and then i became EXTREMELY hot. like sweating my balls off. through out this whole time, there was that puzzle shit goin on in my head.
i felt like i was completely helpless, hopeless, and crazy. i had absolutely no control over my body.
and then before i knew it, i was coming around and i could talk.
i was VERY happy to be sober/not-tripping (cause i was still stoned) it took me about 5 minutes of laying on the bed to completely calm myself, trying to figure out what all that shit meant. i was physically and mentally worn out. i felt like i had just ran 10 miles. i dont know if id call this a bad trip or what..
but what i do have to say is that my mood was lifted for the rest of the day because of the trip. i dont know why, it just felt like i had accomplished something and gotten back whatever i had lost in my trip. now that i look back on my it, i think the thing that was "missing" was my sanity. that was ALL i needed to be happy again and thats ALL i was searching for in this puzzle i thought up when i was tripping.
for everyone out there who wants to try salvia.. just remember that it is NOT like acid or anything else like that. its not euphoric at all and (in my case at least) it can be a lil painful, mentally and physically.
but im glad i did it again on 4/20 because it made me realize that all i needed to be happy was my sanity. it made me realize if i could get through something that weird/bad/displeasing, i could get through anything. (this was my second time trying this, the first time i did the 10x extract)
peace to everyone out there.
im in a real good mood tonight.. just thought you guys might think this is interesting.. : /
oh, and heres a salvia experience i read just a few minutes ago.. what he describes is exactly what i felt.. maybe he does a better job explaining it.
http://www.totse.com/en/drugs/psyche...act199798.html