[TidewaterToker]

when i was a kid i got horrible pains in my hands
started when i was about 11 or 12
i would write notes and have to stop and relax my hands because it hurt
i would rub hard on the muscles but it didnt help
always felt like my joints and bones were on fire or cracking
this went on for about 6 months and i didnt tell anyone
even tho my hands would shake like i had been running for hours.....or been doing crack lol

then i started smoking
at first it eased the pain...but i was smoking mids to alright headies at best
didnt really solve the problem
then as i got more into the culture i would get better ganja
mostly widow when i could
it was narcotic and a good body high

and the best part was my hands would cease to shake
i found that certain strains solved my problem perfectly
especially deisel and white russian...i could smoke a fraction of a gram
and i would be fine for the day
although i did indulge sometimes
when i had my own i regulated self medication and it worked wonders

then i got caught
and was on complete lock down
the pain was over powering
i couldnt think about anything else
i thought fingers were going to start coming off

i went to the doctor cause they thought Carpel Tunnel or a Repeated movement thing
but not much showed up on a x-ray

he gave me anti inflammatory medicine but it didnt help
then when i was ungrounded i bought as much as i could and everything was fine

I think it is rheumatory arthritis because my family has a history with it
also i have broken my left wrist, compound fractures in 3 places
had to get surgeory
also fractured my right wrist twice and fractured my collar bone

well now i am on lockdown again for smoking
and the pain is setting in
i try to smoke on occasion but its difficult
i had to resort to hydrocodene and tramadol
but i have a bad history with pain killers
because when i couldnt smoke before i would take vicodin and hydrocodene
and got hooked
i dont like myself on them but it was my last resort...it also gives me cramps and sometiems naseau

i dont want to take pain killers
and i truly need this wonderful medicine
it is the only thing that truly helps me with no adverse affects
only i live in Virginia
so no pot buyers clubs around here
and i want to homegrow....but the penalty is 5 to 10 years
and i have college to think about
i wish people werent prosecuted for the possesion of a plant
i am considering moving to california or a state with medical programs when i graduate, is there any advice from someone who has been in a situation like this
or legal herbal treatments to keep me along
and how would i go about getting medicinal marijuan card when i move