[Retroshark]

starting on weds, or thurs, when i found out that Head4Life had OD'd, being a good friend of mine, i was pretty upset considering i spoke to him probably right before he went down, but the next day, my best friend Mia came over to talk and chill and we ended up stayin up late chillin and doin a little yay, something i tried for the first time this week. she was talking bout shit with her family and so was i...

onto thurs. see mia and her BF in the am and were just chillin smokin, but that night, i picked up a 20 bag of yay from her just to share with a friend of mines GF who wanted to blow a little. in that time, i guess while mia was at the resteraunt she was at, they tried to give her an intervention type deal, and she and her BF ended up comin to get me and i chilled with her at her place, she was extremely emotional at that point and it really upset me.

friday. wake up and chill. pretty much chill all day while mia and her bf are up in another town pickin up cotton candy and offloading a few things.

they get back at 4-5am and come to my place. this is where it all goes to hell. we start talking, and talking leads to mia crying more, and then shit really starts coming out. all about her coke issues right now and then while shes talkin (and smoking cigs in my dorm room with me and her BF) i jump to my comp to che my emaail.

i found out my mom had take an offer and was negotiating on our house in ATL. so that REALLY tore me up, her partner just broke it off with her so she has no reason to move to another place or even consider moving up north still, which is what she was going to be doing.

we all stayed up thru the night doin yay and smoking alot of weed. at around 1pm the next day, about a half o later, maybe about 2g's of white (i only did about .5) amd over a pack of cigs, we went to mias place to chill.we just laid around all saturday thinking and talkin more. but things were pickin up and i was a lot more emotionlaly stable at that point, along with mia.

we all decide that since we have chilled out so much from the night before, well pick up some rolls an just chill and roll and continue to get stuff out...

well, as we were rollin i call my moms EX to ask her about the house ordeal, since shes my only real contributing adult in my life. she told me the offer was weeks old and not only negotiated on but accepted. i was like what???

my mom had lied and told me the house was not yet sold when in reality, it will be my home in ATL for about 2 weeks more. an i never was even warned there was an offer made until the day before i find out its sold.

about an hour later, mias boyfriend finds out his best friend had OD'd on heroine in a aforeign country.



yea, you can imagine what happened from then on. 3 people, all rolling, all having major major things happen at that one point in time, we literally were all just like wow.... its been like 5 days together nearly 24 hours a day, and weve all been here fro eachother as shits happened.

i cant really put this all into rational sentances or maybe it just is meaningless to anyone but me.

i missed weds thurs classes and todays class. im extremely upset right now, im living in indiana for school, and my mom is up and movin herself out of her house just so she can rent an appt til she finds another state or country to move to. our house in ATL is completely paid off. when she sells it shell have 400,000 or more in her account and judging by the fact ive barely received a penny frm her for anything at all in the last 5 years, i doubt shit will change, and her Ex agreed.

im holding back a lot of upset right now, and now the week has started im having an even harder time dealing.

my spring break plans to go to langerado got ruined because none of my car parts came and i got ripped off by some DICK on them. i cant drive hom so i have to fly, and now ill be spending a week and a half alone in my house, just me, left to pack up the house and get my "Car SHIT" out of the garage.


im really at a loss for what else to say. ive lost so many friends because everyone thinks im just sitting around doing jack shit just cause im an art major and dont have much work outside of class, and the fact that i hang out with people who do drugs, of any kind.

i cant really go on any more about this, its making me too upset. im staring at bud, about 20 bars, some coke and probably other stuff around here. im not in a good mindset and im keeping shit to a minimum but im having a lot of trouble holding on here. the idea of me mia and her BF plus another girl livin up here at school in a house together next year has been bouncing around for a few weeks and tghis weekend has made it a for sure thing. i just wish they were in the next room right now because i dont know what to do with myself