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thanks, actually things just got a little better for myself. although it still remains a tad bit bittersweet.
My friend is a functioning alcoholic, his entire family is as well. He gets the shakes when he doesnt drink for a few days. Anyways himself and I have always kept a lookout for each other as far as what we're both doing (substance wise). We each have come to terms with our addictive personalities and help one another fly straight. His mother gave him a bottle of prozac, for reasons unknown to me. But being the adventurous soul I asked for a few, really not expecting much. First dose was two pills, 40mg of fluoxetine(sp?).
HOLY FUCK
My entire life I have always felt like I wasnt really who I thought I should be. As if my version of "normal" was a state that was unachievable. That I would be prone to anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts for as long as my heart beats. But these pills have elevated me to as close to that goal I think I could ever reach. I've never felt so. . . okay. I feel as if I am happier, more productive and generally a better person to be around.
Now the dilemma, I'm assuming prozac makes everyone feel good. But for me it is as if I'm Dorothy and my world just turned to technicolor. So considering my families history of depression, is this a good move? I'll have to wait and see what my doctor thinks. . . but if this little white and teal pill is what I need to be alright then goddamnit I'll gladly take them.
I'm not one to jump so quickly to a serious decision such as beginning a long term prescription schedule, but I really feel as if this medicine helps me.
- Oh and even though its totally off topic, I should mention that having these in your system increases alcohol and marijuana effects exponentially. Two glasses of champagne and a bowl and I was melting into my chair watching 300.
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