[codyfink]

damn. i know for a fact that karma will fuck you. ive been a piece of shit to everyone ever since the love of my life in (believe it or not 7th 8th and 9th grade said go fuck yourself to me) (oh and dont anyone say i didnt know what love was, i would kill, be killed, kill a basket full of newborn pups for this girl if she wanted me to) well after she told me to go fuck myself, she left me in the dust completely. just forgot about me. i was a complete asshole to everyone and everything, and still am. both my parents divorced their husband/wife which they blamed on me and my sister. i would just get fucked over AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. nothing good would go right. i would fail in school no matter what i did, if i got weed i would spill it,(that one really hurts) no attention from girls at all, i am completely alone in the world besides my pets, 360, weed, and internet. my life went completely downhill from there. i would beat the shit out of my dogs and cats because of how bad i felt, and then a half hour later run to them crying about what i had done saying how sorry i was. i never do anything to the pets i have now, and the only one still alive that i beat (a 15 year old pug) i say sorry to everyday and hug him. i dont know what im going to do when he dies. when i found out my sister had liver cancer at 20 and probably wont make it past 21, almost the same time my favorite dog frank died. (i had beat him before i left, and never got to say sorry to him, or even goodbye, because another dog had came up to him and killed him. when i got a phone call that he was dead, i just fell down screaming in the middle of a hotel lobby while everyone stared at me) i didnt eat for almost 2 weeks straight after that. making my mother think she was the worst in the world. i told her its not her fault, but she rarely even looks at me anymore. which makes me feel horrible just thinking about it. my father is as self centered as i am. i had 3 good ass friends, who stopped hanging out with me, not only because i was a little bitch about shit, but i would be a complete asshole to them about stuff. i called their girlfriends whores, got my ass beat by one, and the other recently told me that the only reason why he was my friend was because he knew i was rich and could get $$ for weed very easily. i have a car but no money for gas because everytime i go for an interview the person sees either how ugly i am, or how much of an anti social prick i am. my life is a complete fucking waste. the only thing that brings me joy are my xbox and weed and my xbox just broke. i cant get any $$ for weed because of the job situation. i feel like the worlds biggest piece of shit. i look at the disabled people that ill see every once in a while and just think how much stronger they are then me. they are in a wheelchair, or are blind, and want to keep on living because they know how beautiful life is. and all i can think about is how much of a self centered piece of shit i am. i hope you all cherish life for all its worth. dont be an asshole to people, or be violent even. they will get whats coming to them.