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Firstly i don't live in the states.
It seems to me you smoke too much or took too much pills.
I sense alot of paranoia and anxiety in what you wrote.
Plus alot of ranting. . . but that is just being 18
Have you got a part time job?
Can you get one?
Do you play a sport?
Do you like Sport?
If it's the excitment of doing dodgy things is what you like , maybe catching snakes (i take it you have them in Texas) would sort that nervous energy out.
You have got a year to make do before college. . . my sugesstion is use it wisely.
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