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Originally Posted by Demonballer

damn. It seems like I could save alot of money! Ive been tripping every week since the summer. I just ate around 5 grams 20 mins ago. Tonight should be fun.

i need some help.... my last trip (which was my second trip, my first trip i fell asleep because i couldnt tell the difference between sleep and awake and was like 'whats sleep' and soon fell asleep and missed the whole thing) i had a BAD trip. I herd that the second trip is the most strong because ur system is use to the poison.... and since i didnt get to expierience my first trip.... maybe i expierienced it all at once and it really was disturbing. it was disturbing in a new mental like way..... i really just didnt like it, i accepted death and wanted it to come because the trip was just so hard on me. Every question i have ever had, made sence...but they came at me one second after another so my mind was racing and i couldnt even think i just HATED IT....being left alone with my own self..my own thoughts....man it just sucked life made sence somehow....i thought that we just WERENT suppose to know what the point of life was so i was yelling "OKAY I just want reality back GIVE ME FUCKING LIFE BACK, i dont want to know the truth, just LET ME BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" it was probably the most torturous thing i have ever had...... It really out of all honesty, WAS traumatic...i can only remember 15% of the trip..... the things were unexplanable...i didnt have any scary visions...i dont think...it was just all mental...thinking....it really was not nice at all...i was out int hte woods about to sleep there in just my shirt i WOULD have froze to death and not be here now.... i thought i was insane, permanently... i wanted to be sane again. and now i honestly do know the feeling of insanity...i was reduced to having the deffence of a vegetable...i basicly jsut didnt want any conflict...i wanted peace...i wanted to bbe safe...and warm.. and thought iw as going to die and freez.....man thats only the part that i can remember it really has fucked me up.... it changed my life , and for once i can actually say something changed my life and MEAN IT. i want to trip again....but i fear this ..this.. i dunno its just a new set of feelings i expierienced..i really do not like it at all.... i only had an 8th to....so next tiem IF i do trip it will only be half an 8th. the mushy's were potent to, small little buggers. at one point i remember for a split second expieriencing my salvia trip which was 10 times worse because i actually was seeing behind reality.....as if everything around me ... physical things u see.... matter.... was just a mask, and there was really something behind all of it....i was the focus of life, and everyone was just observing me i hated it it was like i had no real me, there was no real life because i didnt know life....i was being controled it was just very unearthly.....

sorry this is to long kinda got off to a rant, i just want to know if anyone has ever had such a bad trip or any similarities. peace out